A long overdue update

A long time ago in an apartment far far away…

Actually the apartment wasn’t that far away, but I digress. Since I started this site and project I have moved into a townhouse. I stopped shopping for a couple of months and them BAM. Same thing as before…I shopped. This time it was a trigger.

Disney.

I booked a vacation to celebrate my 40th birthday by going to Walt Disney World for 4 days and then I went on a Disney Cruise for 3 days. That was it. I had all these plans to not buy anything, I already had everything I’d need for the parks, except there was this Loungefly backpack for the 50th that was ending that I really wanted. Oh, and I needed new ears. And a neck fan that actually cools my neck. Oh, and a finger/prop thing for my phone. Oh! I’ll also need new lenses for my phone’s camera. And something to store them in. And I need new bags to organize my backpack. And I want to build a Droid! Needed to make an appointment. And clips to keep my towel on my beach chair. And themed shirts because it’ll be too hot to wear Spirit Jerseys.

And on, and on, and on.

I lost my damn mind.

By the time I came up I was back home, had spent thousands (all on things I used and love by the way), and was back where I started. Once I let myself have an inch to get things for Disney it just spilled into the rest of my life, so of course I bought makeup. I’d been wanting to try the Laura Geller baked powder foundation, more makeup from Violet_Fr because it is just so. damn. good. Did I mention a new lipstick and liner from Guerlain while I was in EPCOT? And don’t even get me started on stuff from the ship. I was going to buy myself an ornament. That’s it. That’s all I wanted.

But then I saw the Wish spirit jersey. And a Mickey short-sleeve shirt (I don’t have many short sleeve tops).

I lost it. I lost myself. I got swept up and swept away in a tsunami of nostalgia, hope, and love for things from a place I love so much.

I even placed one last order from ShopDisney after I got home because there was one shirt I REALLY wanted and the last time I didn’t get it I missed out and I still regret it. So I bought that spirit jersey…and the $20 Stitch beach bag to hold my summer items in storage (it was a special discount purchase with that jersey), and one more purse (I just love Piglet and this Vera Bradley cross-body has Piglet on it) and a 100th anniversary ornament (again, special discounted price since I got the purse). I also got a set of Marvel bath toys for my nephew.

It’s bad.

Really really bad.

I can dig myself out of this debt issue, no problem. It will take awhile but this didn’t kill my credit and it didn’t cripple me. It did leave me with more items in my home to deal with though. Oh, and shock. I’m in a bit of shock over the whole thing. I didn’t realize just how big of a trigger Disney was for me.

Now I know.

I put money down for another cruise while I was on the ship and will be booking another. I’ll discuss this with my therapist. I’ll need a plan. I can’t do this again on my next cruise. It’s as if my rational brain was in a fog. A pink and blue Mickey waffle scented fog, but a fog nonetheless.